Added 2025-05-14 19:20:42 +0000 UTC
im really struggling rn with everything that's been happened especially in the last couple days.. im not sure i can make tonight's stream happen im so sorry... i know i haven't been outputting to the same degree everyone wants and expects from me but i hope you can see that im really trying :( it feels like everything is falling apart and im trying so hard to pick up the pieces but every time i try to put them back together it just crumbles in my hands again. i want to do better for you guys for my friends for myself. i want to be better and finally live instead of having to fight tooth and nail to survive like i have all my life. im exhausted and past my limit, my health is declining and my mental health is also suffering due to all this stress. it's getting so hard to find hope when every time it's taken away from me. i love you guys and apreciate you because ik you guys actually care. im lucky to have you as fans because not alot of people are so patient and understanding. you guys really are the best and i hope to do better for you in the future. im sorry for everything, i hope the sun will come out soon because im not shining so brightly rn.. we all deserve light and positivity and i just can't be that this time...
